lister of my life

for the first time in my life was i so raring to leave home,for the first time in my life was i so torn-out and fed-up and cannot wait to put an end to everything that i am going through...

 

but i am not sorry for everything,i am grateful,it is my destiny and i gonna accept it with immense grace and gratitude ,at least,for the first time in my life i see the beauty of love unveiled in my heart,and i have done everything i can to live one more day in love,one more day...but it turns into the luxury that i could never ever afford...i really have done everything,now it is about time to do the least but not impossible thing i wanna do:accept it.

 

i am thinking shutting this space down forever,it actually has done so much to keep a clue of everything ,but if my life has been devastated,there be no reason for the lister to stay in place any more.

 

i will keep head up high,and keep every memory deep down,i am thankful that my Roma holiday was not as short as 7 days ,because that would not be enough for me to really appreciate the spectacular landscape along the road,and it was that long as 2 or 3 years,because that would be to much for love to root and grow in my heart and inevitably,incurs too much pain for it to die.

 

one last good bye,end of an era.

it feels good to be home,carefree,comfortable,but i kinda have been in the mood to look forward the next year over the shoulder of this year,because next year,it's GONNA be tough,mayber tougher than the wildest imagination i can reach out for in present time.you never know,but one thing i can be completely sure of is that i will give it 100 percent of myself.i am pretty sure about that.

 

 

it is like a football game ,i made a touchdown,it is not a winner touchdown but i guess i will never forget what i have been going through ,so amazing,so beautiful...

 

tomorrow is the homecoming day ,i got thrilled,i have been spending so much time playing loser's card ,now it is about time to go back home ,sweet home ,be myself ,put on my own face ,see some smile from people who i love so ,i am picturing a really good time ahead of me.i am hitting the road...

 

country road ,take me home ,to the place i belong ~~~~~

 

 

exam is finally over,the minute i put down my pen i got an impulse to screen at the top of my lung that :goodbye ,i have had enough of this,bother me no more.

 

from tomorrow on ,i am officially as free as a bird ,i am entitled to do literally whatever i want ,it is about time to pay some interesting revisit to what i really like,something is just like the cherry on top of a sundae ,let me suck on it.

 

 

this christmas is gonna be a disaster,i don't know what is hitting me so fast so unpredictable ,all day long all i can do is just stay indoor doing nothing with nobody but myself ,damn headache ,damn diarrhea ,damn loneliness.get away off me !

 

i was emceeing a 40-people party tonight ,that was  EXHAUSTING~~but i took my solace that it turned out to be very successful ,people were playing ,laughing and having a great time .

 

i love the feeling of taking responsibility and turn it into success ,because nothing is gonna happen in the world where everyone is just passing the buck ,somebody is gonna stand out and take responsibility ,i could be him some time or other .